I can say that I am not. I'm not saying this challenge below is one I would agree with or do, but a part of my spirit yearns for this sort of resolve to move past my sins and into a closer relationship with my Lord. I grow tired of struggling with sins and not overcoming.
This is from the book Humility by Andrew Murray
A Prayer For Humility
Here I will give you an infallible touchstone that will tie all to the truth. It is this; retire from the world and all conversation, only for one month. Neither write, nor read, nor debate anything with yourself. Stop all the former workings of your heart and mind. And, with all the strength of your heart, stand all this month, as continually as you can, in the following form of prayer to God. Offer it frequently on your knees. But whether sitting, walking, or standing, be always inwardly longing and earnestly praying this one prayer to God:
"That of His great goodness He would make known to you, and take from your heart, every kind and form and degree of pride, whether it be from evil spirits, or your own corrupt nature; and that He would awaken in you the deepest depth and truth of that humility which can make you capable of His light and Holy Spirit."
Reject every thought, but that of waiting and praying in this matter from the bottom of your heart, with such truth and earnestness, as people in torment wish to pray and be delivered from it. If you can and will give yourself up in truth and sincerity to this spirit of prayer, I will venture to affirm that, if you had twice as many evil spirits in you as Mary Magdalene had, they will all be cast out of your, and you will be forced with her to weep tears of love at the feet of the holy Jesus.
